Current mood:	fine
Current music:	Howie Day - Numbness for Sound
Entry tags:	bcc, girls, money, poker

Because I'm a creep...
So for now, I've given up on the girl.

If you don't know what I'm talking about, login and read my friends-only entry or add me as a friend. I haven't called her, mainly out of fear of her already being in a relationship and finding myself in an awkward situation. If she wanted to, she could call me, and if it happened that she lost my number but really wanted to call me, such is life. If I see her around campus (which I probably will at some point), I chat with her but it really doesn't bother me too much.

Mainly because I realized a few days after seeing her that I really didn't "need" to meet a girl anymore. I've spent the past six month not finding anyone here amazing and it hasn't bothered me too much. I suppose you could partially explain that one through the reasoning that there are 2 girls in my Physics class and 3 in my Differential Equations class. Oh yeah, the two in my Physics class are in my Diff EQs class, and I talk a lot with one of them and know the other one because she tutors as well.

Issue two, I hate living with my parents. I'd love to move to Fall River but financially it's not going to work out unless the fucking government stops making it impossible to play poker on the internet for a living. And I find time to play (read: ambition). My bankroll is quickly going down the tubes, mainly because I'm not playing.

I've been doing a lot of tutoring, and it's going fairly well. Some stuff is more difficult than others. I'm doing a lot of GED-level writing/grammar tutoring which has been the toughest thing so far. I've been doing some MTH 25 tutoring which is Math of Elementary Education Teachers and its a lot of concepts that are easy to understand but I've never learned them. Recently I had to explain standard deviation and quartiles/ranges/frequences, etc, and I helped but obviously I'm a bit new to the stuff as well.

But the people at the tutoring center like me even though I didn't exist in their system last semester. Obviously I should of got started on this earlier. They like teasing me on things (last Tuesday was nobody likes me day), and hanging around there is pretty fun.

Went to Amherst last Thursday to go back up to Amherst College for an interview with the transfer admissions officer, and it was fairly informal and not too much of an interview. I kind of explained my story a bit more than in my essays but I wasn't really enthusiastic enough and don't think I said anything extraordinary that would give me a better chance of being accepted. I think I still have a chance but it really could have been a much better one. I did get my essays done but they were very rushed and not that good I think.

I sat in on a course up there and it was interesting but not that much of an amazing experience. I tried to go to two classes before the class I ended up in and no one was there 15 minutes before class started. I expected a few students in the room before I showed up, but no one was in either room when I peered in, so I tried another class. I can be really dumb sometimes. The rooms themselves were very unclassroom like, more like meeting rooms, and the other for a fairly large course was almost like a miniature Trinity Rep with plush leather seats. I suppose that's cool. I felt kind of out of place which I guess can be understood. I got to eat free at the dining commons and read one of their social and political thought journals. And I got to see some real snow instead of the pissy SE Mass snow we've been getting. Big snowflakes. It was nice.

I didn't want to write too much, so I'm ending here even though my life recently has been flying by. I don't even have time to explain my Sociology End of Oil course, our service learning organic garden project, some oil/geopolitics/american industry thoughts (Who Killed The Electric Car? - good doc), or eclectic but entertaining ENG12 professor. Time is a disaster.