Yup, still a terrible person.

These two months have basically been a waste of time.

http://approachanxiety.com/?p=289#more-289

"Breaking up is one of the most difficult things for people with social anxiety. People with social anxiety have a huge fear of conflict.  And there isn’t any more conflict than if you break up with someone.

The complete and total emotional separation.  The transition from affiliative partnering to complete estrangement.   Going from I’m-on-your-side camaraderie to complete antagonism.  It’s one of the most difficult things to do."

"When it comes to anxiety, there is probably no place that guys feel it in such a deep emotional way than when he needs to break up with a girl.

You want to be the nice guy.  That’s been your main operative since you were a child.  You care about her feelings.  A lot.

You’ll do anything to avoid being the bad guy.  You are afraid to stir up conflict and incur her wrath."

Wow.

That article is just gold. Wish I had been able to read it before I broke up with Saskia.