So I'm well into the finals grind. Except my final exam grind is stuff that everyone else did months ago.

I'm about 37% through my Child Psych final exam. To recap, it's a take-home thing that we got during the first few weeks of class which consists of 119 questions but many of them are simply asking to define many terms, so all the separate questions actually total up to 198 questions, and I'm through 72 of them although only 26 real questions. I'm actually through most of the easy definition sections and many of the next questions might take a tad more thought to answer, which is a little scary considering I had the whole day off and only got through about 27% of the exam since I had about 10% already done or so. I've kind of been reminding myself that this is my punishment for not doing any work during the semester and feeling as free as a bird while I concentrated on other things like playing poker and stressing out about other less/more important stuff.

At the same time, I still have Sociology and Calc studying to do, Sociology which consists of reading two chapters I haven't read that one question on the final exam essays might be about and just going over stuff/rereading stuff I never read to begin with. And then Calc kind of consists of doing work on everything I haven't done anything on at all, like about all of chapter 9 regarding series, sequences, convergence of series, tests, maclaurins and taylors, etc, etc.

At least I don't have to do anything for History. That's right. I'm exempt from the final because I have an A average for the class (and all you actually needed for that gift was a B- on). I pondered taking it to get an A+ (as my professor thought I was crazy when I asked for the essays for the test) but have since realized I'm retarded and an A is still a 4.00. It's a good thing too because I couldn't see myself doing that and all this stuff for Child Psych. Yeah...I still have those observations of children and articles to find for Child Psych too..wheeee.

So, I have Sunday free although it's already 5am Sunday right now and I haven't gotten any sleep, and Monday I have the morning free and my Sociology mid-term on Tuesday while I have the night off from work. The stuff for Child Psych is due 10:15 (although the professor preferred it much earlier....she can screw). If you get off on teaching anything of substance most of the semester and complain about having to read over a 119 question final exam in 72 hours as well as two other assignments you assign that are 25% of the grade, that is not my fault professor.


On Wednesday after class I attempted to solve some of my issues with immunization holds not allowing me to register, and I passed the office of the transfer advisor I talked to at the Attleboro Campus who was very informative and good to talk to and was nice, compared to the advisor I talked to when I wanted to talk over my schedule that fall. It was all out of blue although I had wanted to talk to her the week prior or so about advisement but I chickened out. She was busy but said could meet with me in a bit and I ended up going over my whole situation and clearing a lot of stuff up about school and all. She referred me to the Presidential Scholars Program which is some type of scholarship where you get half off tuition and fees for a year at BCC provided you meet some requirements and plan on transferring to a private institution. It's meant for high school seniors going right into BCC but she talked to the woman in charge of it and said I could just get some recommendation from a professor/HS teacher. I'm a little skeptical of getting into this program given that it seems more geared towards like I said people directly out of HS and I'm 2 years removed, but half of tuition and fees would definitely help me pay for school the next two semesters even if I don't get anything out of the BCC foundation app I filled out.

Oh yeah, the essay prompt for it is awesome : "If money were no object and if you would be automatically admitted, where would you choose to attend college and why?". What is somewhat amusing to me is that the college I always sort of admired since I was about 12 (or when I simply started playing netrek hockey) wasn't the first one that came to my mind. And literally about five popped in my head the moment she told me that was the prompt... Harvard...no....Clark..no...Hampshire..no...Fitchburg...no... To think that I forgot my stupid 8th grader dreams so soon was kind of weird. Although I'm not exactly sure how I explain wanting to go to MIT after playing an online computer game for most of my adolescent life in a 500 word essay explaining how it was all because the server the game was on was at MIT. Dork.


I also ended up going back to high school firstly to get some high school transcripts printed out but also to hi to teachers. I ran into Izzi in the hallway and talked about my way too easy Calc II class including me not doing any homework since the 6th section of the class. I could feel her cringe at the thought. I chatted with Shirman about BCC and all the typical stuff and she said I looked good and although I don't think she used the exact terminology, said I looked "adultish". And I left a note on Cohen's board along with S (x arcsin x)dx. I might have forgotten the dx though (-1).

The next time going back to pick up my transcripts I went to go see Sawyer and him and Rosa were talking - two birds with one stone. Asked Rosa if she could do a recommendation for me for the BCC program thing, talked about BCC stuff. Realized that after going through my thought processes regarding last semester at BCC, I don't have all that much more to say. Rosa said I looked "handsome" which along with "adultish" would be the two words I would have least considered myself. That and Sawyer could see me getting my Ph.D some day. I could agree with that more than the prior two.


Regarding being "handsome", for those who were curious about making a move I've kind of flunked. The Friday I planned to do something I left class and didn't wait up for her for some stupid reason. It's probably about the first mistake I feel I've made in regards to Tiffany. I don't know, it was part me not feeling like trying to do anything and also people were entering from the next class kind of quickly and we were both taking our time. On Wednesday, our last class, I wrote down my name and number on a post-it and put it in my pocket just in case. She didn't show up to class. Part of me hopes that on the final, we both finish at the same time, start talking, I ask her out to go get something to eat and she's not doing anything and we live happily ever after. It'd be excellent timing too because I have the night off, the final is at 2:45 and 2 hours long.

I've talked to several people about her like Emily and Amy and Cindy from the Shell felt she was certainly flirting with me when she made that comment that's had my heart ever since. I'm not really sure what she actually sees in me if that's the case but with outside confirmation that I look "handsome" maybe that's why. Will I miss her if I never see her again? Yes. .... I suppose that's really all the reasoning I need to approach her... there's no analyzing it. Reasoning is one thing though.... doing is another.

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